i went to a going away party tonight.

another close friend.

leaving.

gone.

it's hard not to internalize and think why is this person leaving me?? why does everyone leave me???

i can't wait for something that will never leave.

maybe that's why i adore my parents so much? and my blankie.

these things will never abandon me.

my parents because they're not allowed to. my blankie because it doesn't have legs to run.


why are love and life and relationships so tricky?

there are so many levels. and everyone has a fucking agenda. everyone's out to promote their own ass.
i can't wait for the power struggle to be over. love shouldn't be about who has the power.

it is a bond. a partnership. the highest friendship. it is saying to someone: i hold you above everything and everyone else. you are worth the sacrifice. you are worth the rest of my days. for you, i will make the impossible possible.

but it's even more simple.
true love.

pure.

simple.

for you, i will.